My journey thro the yr 2008!!

I began the very first day with all new experience..... My first assignment... quite a big team..... Totally new to me.... Quite a long journey early in de mrng and wow it was just amazing...... i still remember the day.... Yes The yr had begun... The very 1st weekend was a disaster... Yes it was a disaster thn but ofcourse a joke now.... I knew how thngs could be wrongly interpreted by others though it was not meant to be that way.... My first learning in the yr...... Was very much disturbed thn but now i wud say i care a damn as to how u interpret it cos i kno wat de fact is!!! Consequences are never anticipated before we do certain thngs... we do it casually but it ends up in a disaster.... but yeah its all cos of murphy's law!! ... Yeah my days went on... I happened to interact wid a lot of ppl... later was given another assgnment at the same place.... supposed to be a team of 2 but till de end had 2 manage alone..... God only knos wat I did der but did somethng.... I celebrated my bday !!! legally an Adult!!! yet immature.... But still...thngs went on! It was jus de beginning... It has been the most eventful yr in my life ever..... met the best of best ppl.... most importantly learnt whom to trust!! Learnt to differenciate between those speaking from the tip of the tongue and those from the bottom of the heart!! even though i realised all this thro lot fdisappointments... but yeah a big learning for life time...Well the next few mnths not very eventful... My life started in May!!! yes May 14th to be precise..... The day i travelled to banglore with a gal who was jus a senior on tht day but one of my best of best buddies in the next few days... Wow!!! The most adorable person ever..... She is just the best.... The 23 days at banglore was like the best days ever in the whole yr!! ofcourse i m sure it will be for my whole life too!! Those were the best days as it was de most expected from one side of it and unexpectedly too!! I was with my most favourite ppl...... Had so much fun though others in de team had to work really hard and i escaped being the juniormost!!! on my return had my exams whch was not bad.... and later started the unescapable computer training due to which i had to miss lots n lots.... especilly during the end of it. Cant imagine how frustrated i was... But the days i bunked those classes were all ultimate fun... Even though the computer training dint help me out much, i had lot more learning in my articleship training!!! Thanks to my frens who helped me get thro de computer training by givin me proxies! helping me wid my projects!! I dont even kno wat my project was... It was all done by my best frens!!! thnks to them.... and atlast the exam was over and i scored wat was required!! Well thn months passed and I completed one yr of articleship!! wow unimaginable... Suppposedly a 2nd yr article... cant stop laughing... i dono how much i really learnt but had loads of fun in 1 yr... and Sept 13th was de day of completion and that day was too made unforgettable by my most favourite ppl again!!!! Well thn again mnths passed.... Bitter experiences which have given me lifetime learning!! well everything happens for a reason......

October 26th the day b4 this diwali.... the sunday was the most unexpected day.... Had so much fun.... I really m falling short of words.... One of the happiest days and wud say precious day for my lifetime!!!

Thn i happened to travel wid my best frend.... Though the whole experience of it is not worth talking abt.. but yeah she s the best person... one person who withstood all my anger and frustration and ofcourse excitements too!!!!

This year was a gr8 yr for me and I happened to meet and kno the best ppl ever!! I do not kno how much i matter to them but to me they are THE BEST!!! i wud fight against the world for them.... They have given me trmendous support during my bad times.... I owe lots and lots to all of those best ppl.... and i really dono wat to say or do.... They have always made me feel good... thanks to all of them and i thank God for giving me such precious ppl in life... They are precious for my lifetime!! wud never let them go.... Years may pass... but to me they are the same forever.... The most precious and valuable ones in life...

Looking forward for another eventful yr.......

Gud or Bad... Just another experience.......

With all excitement and expectations i started off my latest assignment....... it was the most expected one rather..... my best fren n i were in the team and we had all plans for gud fun but unfortunately thngs were not in place..... The excitement level started dropping right from the first day!!! My fren never has a prob with anything in life.... she can withstand anythng and anybody, unlike me.... I was so helpless right from the beginning till the end..... It was an all junior team but still i had all my confidence of keeping the team going as all of us could jus stay as a team n do well..... again i was proved wrong..... atleast could have kept the fun aspect going.... nor was that possible.... The first time i wanted an assignment to get over and wanted to get back as soon as possible..... I cribbed to all possible and reachable ppl.... It was too easy for them to jus say forget it.... but it was very difficult for me.... Ntn that was expected happened.... Right from the beginning till the end so many disappointments came my way.... but at last it got over... I really dono if it got over smoothly but it got over.... ofcourse gud or bad everythng has an end..... Its just tht it did not end the way i wanted it to.... afterall the beginning itself was unexpected... but still there were hopes till the last week after which everythng went totally wrong....

At last i made up my mind, not to forget but atleast pretend to have forgotten.... forgetting this is out of question.... highly impossible... but may be i need time to come over.....

It is too difficult for me to take it wen thngs dont happen the expected way..... but thn now i realised tht my attitude is to be changed for me to survive among peers..... Not everybody are the same.... yes but now wen m gonna discuss abt this 2 someone i would laugh n get away but ofcourse somewhere in the corner of my mind it will defenitely poke.......

The toughest victory is the victory over self..... yes this time i lost to it..... I couldn stand up to my own expectations....

I can take pride in saying i lost only to myself afterall..... but yes it was in a way a wonderful learning experience..... gud or bad..... at last everythng is over....... I m sure such an experience will never ever come to me again cos i m never ever gonna expect anythng.... its only expectations that lead to complications and disappointments... Isnt it true???? The history will not repeat itself......

The mangalore melodies....

Mangalore, The city may not sound that interesting to u... but to me de it does.. was just back from manglore... The mangalore melodies are still lingering in my heart and it will all thro my life... I experienced all my times der... from fun to serious work.... Though it was an amateur team i experienced a very great feel right from the begining till the end.. Yes a sense of achievement... Though it may not sound big to others but to me it did.... Even though we haven done anythng big we made sure tht thngs we did were proper and the sense of satisfaction was der.. Beleive it or not my one year it was the first time i experienced it!!! The bestest experience ever.. yes it was better than the best.. thts y the bestest der!!! I had de best time and ma worst time in the one yr out der!! but i had the best ppl to make me overcome the worst thng!!! The 24 days made me learn loads of things..... I had the best time.. The most awaited one rather!!!! ofcourse wud hv been a lot more fun if i had different set of ppl... I only wish there was one more person with us..... That wud hv made our time really amazing..... anyways i can only wish that there is one more oprtunity keeping ma fingers crossed... It was really thrilling to see the outcome.... The final stage.. Oh my god!!! No word to describe.... My first learning experience.....
amazing is not the word...
Mangalore, to me is a bliss!!!
It was more beautiful than the most beautiful thngs on earth put together!!!
There are going to be loads of beauty coming up in ma life
But this is something always special!!!!
The mangalore melodies will linger throughout in my life.... The same pace the same way and the minute it stops, ll stop my growth... which i kno ll happen only at my grave!!

Life changed me or i changed de way i was living???

One day, all of a sudden i sat back and went into my past which is not real past but just wat i was 2 years back!!! It was amazing to realise that i am not wat i was, but there was a considerate change in me, my thoughts, my inner self ,my confidence levels, in one word the WHOLE ME. I never wanted to change deliberately but I have. 2 years back i never had a true frend, or even a person wid me whom i share myself wid or who cud uinderstand me.But now i can say that I have not just frens but ppl whom i can say are more than frens,whom i literally worship and adore.The reason wen i analysed i understood that i was only expecting others to understand me but never attempted to understand them .I wud say that i never loved myself so much but ppl around me now made me realise my value. I started loving myself and that has made the difference in me and my confidence. At the moment i have nothing to crib about in life. I am sure i will not crib anytime in future also bcos I believe life is pleasant or dull its all the way u look at it. U thnk it is dull ur life is dull and if u think it is beautiful so ll be ur life!!! It took almost 5 years for me to realise this. Now I just have to say that my life is beautiful which is why probably I am happy which I was not a couple of years back. No more fears, no more regrets, no more cribs, no more negaive thoughts... My life is an everlasting beauty. Now I am shedding a tear, not cribbing about something but out of joy, happiness and excitement about my present life and lovable ones........... I luv everybody in ma life!!!