With all excitement and expectations i started off my latest assignment....... it was the most expected one rather..... my best fren n i were in the team and we had all plans for gud fun but unfortunately thngs were not in place..... The excitement level started dropping right from the first day!!! My fren never has a prob with anything in life.... she can withstand anythng and anybody, unlike me.... I was so helpless right from the beginning till the end..... It was an all junior team but still i had all my confidence of keeping the team going as all of us could jus stay as a team n do well..... again i was proved wrong..... atleast could have kept the fun aspect going.... nor was that possible.... The first time i wanted an assignment to get over and wanted to get back as soon as possible..... I cribbed to all possible and reachable ppl.... It was too easy for them to jus say forget it.... but it was very difficult for me.... Ntn that was expected happened.... Right from the beginning till the end so many disappointments came my way.... but at last it got over... I really dono if it got over smoothly but it got over.... ofcourse gud or bad everythng has an end..... Its just tht it did not end the way i wanted it to.... afterall the beginning itself was unexpected... but still there were hopes till the last week after which everythng went totally wrong....
At last i made up my mind, not to forget but atleast pretend to have forgotten.... forgetting this is out of question.... highly impossible... but may be i need time to come over.....
It is too difficult for me to take it wen thngs dont happen the expected way..... but thn now i realised tht my attitude is to be changed for me to survive among peers..... Not everybody are the same.... yes but now wen m gonna discuss abt this 2 someone i would laugh n get away but ofcourse somewhere in the corner of my mind it will defenitely poke.......
The toughest victory is the victory over self..... yes this time i lost to it..... I couldn stand up to my own expectations....
I can take pride in saying i lost only to myself afterall..... but yes it was in a way a wonderful learning experience..... gud or bad..... at last everythng is over....... I m sure such an experience will never ever come to me again cos i m never ever gonna expect anythng.... its only expectations that lead to complications and disappointments... Isnt it true???? The history will not repeat itself......
